Havent been all here lately.

The last week and a half i havent been my usual self. Today though I feel alot more like I want to feel!! Spent alot more time with the kiddos today I am sure they were happy about that.

I wish i could stay outta these downfalls that I have. They aren't fun and its a waste of life and no matter how much I tell myself that I am just wasting my time being depressed and upset about stupid stuff. I still feel that way. this month we did MUCH better money wise.. that made me happy, but I gotta make sure we make it the rest of the month not always easy. I am getting very upset lately just because I cant buy my boys new toys..or new beds like they need. I want them to have so much stuff that they have wanted but I haven't been able to provide them for so long. I just keep telling myself that we have to struggle a bit then once we are set we will be able to buy them things.

I read my moms blog today and her blogs always seem to having meaning and purpose and something to think about and mine seem mostly like bitches or rants. I like my mothers blogs. They are interesting and she is a great writer. Maybe she needs to write a book!

Neways bouts are fighting like usual off i go!

Being a WOMEN!

i hate being a Women sometimes. I mean it has its advantages. Having babies is def something rewarding and its great to be able to experience that. No other aspect to being a women is fun. The up and down roller coasters, yea it drives all the men crazy but how do you think we feel about it? The once a month killer aunt flow is not very fun either. the grumpiness you have on those days is just ridiculous but there is nothing that you can do about it. It feels as if you aren't controlling your own body. you watch yourself being a total bitch to everyone around you and it saddens you but honestly there is not a way to stop it. at least in my case. you better just put up with it. the appearance thing is just about as big of a pain in the ass as anything. I hate waking up in the morning and looking in the mirror and thinking of oh my hair looks horrible..Ahh I have a pimple. What am I gonna wear today? does this make me look fatter than I am..is that possible? yea you get the picture...that just sucks! and then you make yourself look awesome and you go out..but no one turns there head at you..yea a real jab in the stomach. I wish I could just not care about it. Live would be better! I'm in one of those real grouchy moods. Where I hate the world and everything in it...Especially me type moods!! BUt the good thing about being a women is usually when I have one of these day...tomorrow is always better

:)

Welp heather had her baby, and she is the cutest thing ever!!

Sorry I didn't write yesterday it was a crazy day and I did not feel very good in the least bit. I don't think anyone cares I didn't write because no one reads this anyway. Stress! How do u get rid of it?? how do u ignore things in a way that you don't get stressed but still are able to fix the problem? Its been causing me stomach pains..hair loss and leg pains. I know its stress! I just don't know what to do about it. I don't handle stress very well at all.

Neways Nikki made a video montage thing for me. Its way cute. Except there are some pregnant bellies in there that aren't mine. but she only had 1 preggo belly pic so she had to find more! I will post the link to it here..because I don't think it will let me put it on my blog..I know you can add video but I don't have it saved anywhere!

My Best Friend!

Is in the hospital Having a baby!! I am so excited!!! Last time they called which was about 1:30 they said she was dilated a 5 :) Today is the day! I totally cant wait to see a picture of her! I wish i could be there i really do and it makes me so sad! :(

A Site Called Howrse!

I can still remember my First Pony. A newfoundland Pony, Miss Fear, I called her. She was my starting point into a world of horses. I live in a city and never grew up around horses, but had a passion for them. This game Howrse is really an outlet for people who love horses and want to learn what it would be like as a horse breeder. How complex it is to take care of them and being able to watch them grown :) Being proud of them when they win 1st place in the galloping race! Picking a handsome stud for them to breed with. Making Perfect little fillys and colts. It was so easy to fall in love with this game. There was challenges: Helping your horse gets its perfect 100 BLUP, Making sure you get the highest GP that you can by making sure you spend lots of time with your little ones, and then we cant forget setting up your own equestrian center. The fun your have with all these challenges is what draws you to the game. Have spare time? I suggest a little Howrse for your day! The Team there have made it such a interactive game. You can buy and sell horses, and even give them special items to help them along. Want twin horses?? Use a fertility wand!! My kids Even love to watch me play! They love the different horses!! Perfect game for younger kids. Teaches them responsibility!!

Take some time out today and Visit www.howrse.com Make you a starter horse and step into the world of pure horse fun! I guarantee it will win your heart :)

Discipline

Ok so this post is regarding the controversy over how to punish your child. I have 3 Boys, ages: 6, 4, and 2. I am still struggling to this day to find a form of punishment that works. We have tried whoop ins, time-outs, redirecting, and of course talking. none of it seems to work! Maybe i am just doing it wrong. Time-outs seem to have the best affect on them. Believe it or not spanking them doesn't even phase them. Its just the frustration that i go through during time out time is enough to make the top of my head blow off. I suppose it would get easier in time, but it is a very hard things to stick too. My kids absolutely hate being in there room for some reason. So i am now doing time outs in there...they spend the good amount of their time out time..kicking the door and screaming. I guess that means they hate it..and in turn will act right when they get out. I wish i knew the magic way..or the magic word. I went to parenting classes and at first was excited about them because i thought they would give me some sort of idea on how to raise a child, but unfortunately they did nothing of the sort. How do they expect parents to get it right when there is no way of us knowing how to handle an out of control child? I dunno i wish when you hit the magic 1 year or 2 year stage they offered free classes at the health department or something for you to go to and learn good technique i think alot of child abuse and child neglect would change if they did. Neways i am gonna put a poll on my blog here on the right side column asking what technique worked the best for you, and of course if you had any other punishment you used that worked well comment me and let me know about it!! G-day!

Got from my moms bloggie!

Four jobs you have had in your life:
1. Telemarketer
2. Customer Service rep
3. Fast Food
4. Being a Mommy

Four movies you would watch over and over:
1. Any Harry Potter Movie
2. Revenge of the Nerds
3. Rocky horror picture show
4. Dirty Dancing

Four places you have lived:
1. Lawton, OK
2. The Colony, TX
3. Factoryville, PA
4. Norman, OK

Four TV shows you love to watch:
1. Survivor
2. Grey's anatomy
3. Lost
4. Biggest loser/ America next top model

depends on which one is on at the time :)

Four places you have been on vacation
1. Philadelphia, Pa
2. San Antonio, TX
3. Foley, Mo
4. some place in Kansas

Four of my favorite foods:
1. Potatos
2. Country fried steaks
3. Chocolate
4. Grilled Cheese and Tomato Soup :)

Four places I would rather be right now:
1. Ireland
2. Bed
3. California
4. Norman, Ok

Four friends I am tagging that I think will respond:
1. Mom (Jill)
2. Kenny
3. Richelle
4. Candy